I am
writing this as I wait – on an airport runway.
My equanimity held up pretty well as I waited an hour
and a half to board a plane that was late getting
in; but when we got out on the tarmac and were told
that we needed to wait another ninety minutes, the
persona of patience among the passengers began to
unravel.
I don’t like
to wait. Most of us don’t like to wait. But
we do. Or at least we have to. We wait in traffic;
we wait in line; and as we wait we get edgy, if not
testy, about not being in control – and about
what we are missing. I read somewhere that a cottage
industry has developed in which people can pay someone
to do the waiting for them. At frustrating moments
– like the one I am in at this moment; that
sounds like a good idea; but for the life of me I
don’t know how it can apply to air travel.
We are in the season
of Advent -- which is the season of waiting. And most
of us are ambivalent about it. We are liturgically
waiting for the One who is coming, but in real time
we either fill these four weeks with more activity
than at nearly any other season of the year –
or approach panic about the time we don’t have.
In the Christian faith,
waiting is not about getting something done –
or arriving somewhere. It is about being with God.
Waiting with God. Years ago, a reporter asked Mother
Teresa of Calcutta what she did during prayer. “I
listen for God,” she replied. What does God
say? - she was then asked. “Oh, God is listening,
too.”
I would call that
holy waiting. Waiting with the earth in its deepening
darkness for the light that is coming. Waiting for
the light of clarity and hope; waiting for the promise
which comes in a divine descent as the Prince of Peace.
Of course, there are
some things for which we are reminded we cannot wait.
Martin Luther King’s refusal to wait for justice
landed him in a Birmingham jail in 1963. From that
prison and, as it turns out, monastic cell, Dr. King
wrote to a group of local clergy who wanted him to
wait to advance his civil rights agenda: “Frankly,
I have yet to engage in a direct-action campaign that
was "well timed" in the view of those who
have not suffered unduly from the disease of segregation.
For years now I have heard the word "Wait!"
It rings in the ear of every Negro (sic) with piercing
familiarity. This "Wait" has almost always
meant 'Never’. We must come to see, with one
of our distinguished jurists, that "justice too
long delayed is justice denied."
But Martin Luther
King did wait. He waited with scripture on a regular
basis; and in that holy waiting he was filled with
insights, clarity -- and an urgency for justice that
would not be bound by political expediency.
Desmond Tutu did not
wait for the people of privilege to bring about the
end of apartheid. But like Mother Teresa, Archbishop
Tutu had – and has, a daily discipline of waiting
in prayer and in silence, which, as we have seen,
has kindled resistance to an unjust system, and has
created an urgency for justice that would not be bound
by economic anxiety.
Jesus’ ministry
could be described visually as a series of triptychs:
action panels variously involving healing, confronting,
teaching and inviting – which flank the center
panel that always depicts Jesus in prayer. It turns
out that Jesus never did anything without waiting
with God first.
The edginess of waiting
in line or in traffic --or on the tarmac, generates
a reaction of anxiety – about me and my schedule,
and my need for control. Holy waiting produces resolve.
Resolve for God and justice in God’s Creation.
Holy waiting is the crucible in which our commitments
and passions are burnished in the fire of God’s
love. Holy waiting helps to shape and direct our energies
– for God’s purpose, the soul’s
health and the world’s wholeness.
Our souls, our congregations
– our world, beg for us to cast away the temptation
to reaction, and put on the armor of resolve. Through
holy waiting.
As my plane lifts
up into the night sky, I invite you to wait well.
+Mark Beckwith
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